Not About Me
"Spiritual
formation" has become one of the most over-used
(and misunderstood) buzz-words of our day. The
idea fascinates and resonates with us for many
reasons.
We
want to draw closer to God. We'd like some way to
deal with the baggage that we usually keep tucked
out of sight. Spiritual formation seems to offer a
solution to our personal sense of emptiness or
aimlessness. Besides, we admire "spiritual
people." Why not join their ranks, if
possible?
Hopefully,
the process won't be too demanding and the
language won't be too difficult to pick up. So, we
launch ourselves with gusto into various
disciplines - a little silence, a little solitude,
occasional fasting, and periodic prayer. We read,
meditate, and study.
But
for many of us, the enthusiasm wanes and our hopes
to be "spiritually formed" turns to
disappointment. We find ourselves dry,
unimpressed, and largely unchanged. Spiritual
formation is not the panacea that we had thought.
Its promise feels
hollow.
Our
failure to experience the riches of spiritual
formation may have more to do with our motives and
expectations than the process
itself.
When
we approach spiritual formation as a means to
garner admiration from the crowd, or a subtle way
to get close enough to God that we can manipulate
Him (ever so gently), we fall short every
time.
Biblically
- and no, the phrase "spiritual formation" is not
a biblical phrase - the idea of being shaped by
the Spirit of God has one end in
mind, that we might love more fully.
Ultimately, spiritual formation is the perfecting
of the fruit of the Spirit (Gal 5.22-23) which
places love at the top of the list. The Apostle
John drew the same conclusion (1 Jn
4.7-8).
The
subtle heresy of our day may be that the truly
"spiritual person" is the disciplined person who
sacrifices everyone and everything to pursue God.
Mystical union with God, however, is no end in
itself. Its purpose is to make us profoundly
deeper lovers - of God and each other. Remember
the two greatest commandments (Matt 22.36-39)? The
one who knows God most deeply, also loves others
most
deeply.
Spiritual
formation, then, is not about me - but about us.
Enough of the narcissistic pursuit of
spirituality, filled with self-admiration and
self-fulfillment. Only as our spirituality
embraces God and others more fully than ever, will
the dryness be rejuvenated and the disillusionment
turn to deep
joy.
In HOPE
-
David